Problems or troubles?

                Is it that really that much problems and troubles between us? Since when we lack of trust or faith in each other? I don't know yours but mine is started when we're in Mid Valley. I remembered that you lie when we're looking to wedding promotion,the ring on your finger... Like I told you, it isn't that I not noticed that it wasn't my name craved on that ring or I can't sense that your heart contained else but not me, it is just I just don't wanna spill it out till you rather want to tell or till you ready to tell me.... If you'll have tell me sooner maybe that I can know that you have faith in me but you just can't put up your mind,huh? Just like now? Struggling between your family and I?


              If what I expressed cause you misery I would rather keep it inside me so that it will not affect our relationship which is already poor enough. I think you too did the same thing right? to prevent from hurting me. However, when you kept something from me, I will know that you're hiding something cause your emotions betrayed you or they just din't wanna hide when you're with me. The only thing I kept from you is a secret and you'll soon find out when we're married... But I can guarantee you that when you know my little secret, you'll surely laugh till no need to sleep the whole night for I'm being silly all the time for the things I shouldn't.

Upside down

         Its been awhile since I update my post or reading other's post. Its been complicated this lately that every part of my life seems like going upside down.Is it my problem that cause everything to change around me?Probably,yes.I'm imperfect till everyone around me suffers that they rather dump me throw away this miserable feelings.Sorry for causing so much trouble in your life.My heart still aches even if we didn't broke up because I know that it will changes our feelings towards our relationship and it will not go back like how we just started.I'm selfish am I not? to hold what it doesn't belong to me,to grab what I shouldn't.... Will you still hate me? or you would rather let me go just to think that my future is better off without you? 


          What's happening to me? Is it my fault for making my relationship so poor? Am I that creepy? Should we meet more so we could understand each other better or let it be?I need guidance from you,wolf

Apologize

                Hubby, I;m so sorry for my selfishness of my part time job.... I know that it will be unfair you but please bear with it.By doing my part time, we must keep all about us in a hidden part where no public should be seen. I know it will be hard for you please forgive me...