对不起。。。

谢谢老天今天让我遇见他两次 :D  原以为今天见不到了，偏偏让我找到他家而且还见到他了。。。虽然他还是黑着脸的摸样但至少是我这三个星期以来第一次件他。。。看着他载他母亲一起就不打扰了。。。因为我还想见见他顺便把衣服给他。。。结果就没作到啦。。。我还跟他的车擦肩而过。。。看着这样的情况就知道我会弄到他不开心了。。。三个星期的思念原以为可以让我们更爱彼此，更珍惜彼此。。。原来这都是我一厢情愿罢了。。。对，他说的对。。。是我厚着脸皮，不要脸的去找他。。。我原本也没想过要去他新家的。。。只是走完了tesco ampang看不见他，以为我们的缘分已快到尽头了。。。那时的我还满绝望的就去了他的旧家，想看看。。。然后临走之前想到不如去碰碰运气，可能找到他新家呢？ 那时才查阅地址，原来室将近就去找了。。。没想过原来我得出现会给他添麻烦了。。。对不起。。。

最可笑的事是我把新同事误以为是他，还线了一大推不该的东西给他。。。真paiseh。。。不过这可笑的事应该也没机会跟他分享了吧。。。

在你眼里我到底是什么?

你知道吗。。。我一直都觉得自己很不了解你。。。你要当好人我不反对但当了又埋怨没人陪和理你那那时你就别做好人啦。。。你自己要当好人干吗把我拖下水呢?我一开始就对c有戒心了然后吵架过后我根本就不信任她的所有了。。。我有跟她讲话已经是我最大的让步了。。。偶尔我真的很好奇到底我是你女友还是她才是?我很模糊很乱了。。。你做么会将关心人家的东西反而对我的事不闻不问。。。你说你如此的关心人家是因为她的男友是你的朋友而且是好的那一个。。。竟然你会说c是你的朋友的女友那你干吗去管别人的女友的事呢?她车水匮坏了干你什么事?她的事不是应该她男友去理她管她，为什么会是你呢?如果我跟小嫂不妥你会管吗?难道你如此关心别人，别人会关心我吗?她的朋友或男友会关心我吗?关心我几时死?很现实的说我不介意你跟她的男友是好朋友不过请不要叫我加入或参与，可以吗?像那时在食堂时，她问我是否口是心非，我都不懂该怎么回答，要顶还是不要好。。。对不起如果有得罪的地方。。。
因为你问我，我已经很多事不要对你太刻薄了。。。老公放在面书的cover，每次我开老公的profile一定看到她们两个，我真的很不爽可我从来没要求你换过。。。那时你要我问c，我都问了，让我跟她坐在一起，我都依了你。。。我不后悔可我不懂为何你只会批评我，说我这个不好，那个很坏。。。难道在你眼里我全部都不好吗?因为你从没称赞我的好更没有因为我的好奖励我或陪我什么的。。。
可能我已习惯我身边的男生嫌弃会直说甚至会告诉我他们不参我是为什么。。。嫌弃才会抛弃的道理。。。到了你这边原来是那么不一样。。。我会努力习惯的^^
不过在你眼里我到底是什么?为何我看不出你在珍惜我呢?

Reunion

Thanks for today's meeting. I'm fine by myself even if I have to go on alone in my world. Actually, I'm off your concern already. If you really feel troublesome when people complaining about me then ignore them or ask them not to find you anymore regarding me. I don't know that people will find you when I caused trouble or will they my current boyfriend? Anyhow, thank you for helping me behind but if you really insist on being my friend, please straight forward with me. I can see that just now you're trying your best to hide something from me but no matter what is it, if it regarding about me,just spill it out. I really hate people who hide thing in front of me and trying hard to back stab me.

Chatting with you isn't hard for me as you've said, we're friends. Just that, no more no less. I know well of my attitude that made people feel hate on me but I treat people the way they treat me. If he/she treat me well, I'll have no doubt to treat them well and vice versa.

Seriously, I know Jennie and Mikey more than you do as I'm closer with them. What people belongs to what character, I'm well acknowledge too. In my world, I've seen clearly on what friends should I contact more and which one I shouldn't. 

Maybe you're a bit right about my current boyfriend that he's a bit immature. However, not only he chose me but I chose him too. Despite no matter how immature he is,I must still accept and tolerate. Anyway, I should thank him for making me independence. Now I work on myself, didn't depend on him too much as I did it on you. So far, most of the time also I drove but sometimes he drove using my car so is alright to me. While about your personal lifestyle, I can have no say already as I'm in no post to do it anymore. If you're happy with who are you now then just go on. I also did the same way. I'm happy for who I am now. I can go shopping, do revision and part time job as I will.

I never regret an what have I done so far from knowing you, falling in love, being in relationship and finally broke up and being as friend again as I already let go what it should be. so just hope that we both can live  happily on our own. 

 

By the way, regarding your case, that depends on how much you weight your friendship and working. If you feel your friend is more important then stay with them but be prepare as you'll have to pay money to settle your degree certificate. If you choose working then as you mentioned earlier, if they angry at you just let them scold you a few bad words and treat them sushi king then it'll be fine else you also cannot do anything already.