Upside down

         Its been awhile since I update my post or reading other's post. Its been complicated this lately that every part of my life seems like going upside down.Is it my problem that cause everything to change around me?Probably,yes.I'm imperfect till everyone around me suffers that they rather dump me throw away this miserable feelings.Sorry for causing so much trouble in your life.My heart still aches even if we didn't broke up because I know that it will changes our feelings towards our relationship and it will not go back like how we just started.I'm selfish am I not? to hold what it doesn't belong to me,to grab what I shouldn't.... Will you still hate me? or you would rather let me go just to think that my future is better off without you? 


          What's happening to me? Is it my fault for making my relationship so poor? Am I that creepy? Should we meet more so we could understand each other better or let it be?I need guidance from you,wolf

Apologize

                Hubby, I;m so sorry for my selfishness of my part time job.... I know that it will be unfair you but please bear with it.By doing my part time, we must keep all about us in a hidden part where no public should be seen. I know it will be hard for you please forgive me...

Happiness

     Happy nowadays due to many occasion.Firstly, my hubby is getting sweeter and meaner...He is sweet when I'm adoring while meaner is because he is starting to be protective by not letting knowing what is he thinking now.
     Second, I got my own car already although it is a second hand small car but at least it is better than nothing.I've been driving for the second week :) During the first week, I'm so nervous but excited to get to drive my own car :D the second day of the first week being mumble by my hubby due to my poor driving skill :( Aw~
On the third day of the first week of my driving, when he followed my car from behind, he said my driving skill improved ..... This week is the second week le, other than my weak parking skill, my hubby didn't criticize me anymore le ...Say cheese :D
    Another thing that I'm happy about is I finally get a part time job. Whatever my job is still a secret.For those who know,please keep your mouth SHUT !!! Thank you for your cooperation ...

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