I sensed something different lately. I sensed that you're unease and madness. Are you alright? Is it because of me? If yes,I'm sorry but the character that I showed to everyone is just the same that I've shown you when we were fifteen. The talkative and being easy to get mad ,that is the real me, the me that you known.
This morning I saw her, your dream girl, the second girl that makes you fall in love with her after your first love. I can see that she's ok with everything happening around her including you worked next to her. I also knew that you want go near to her that's why you'll want to stand beside her, by her side. If you really love then tell her about how you feel since you're single already. So what if she already has a boy friend, it doesn't mean that you can't love her for she told you that she regretted for not accepting you. Tell her that you just provide her another option maybe a better choice for her. Please,seek back your true love, the pure love feeling that you once had. And once you have, don't lose it again.
Today, in college, my ass seek trouble with me again but she failed. As always, I sure humiliate her for troubling me. When I sat with new student, she said I couple with him. Then when I sat in between Brandon and Alex, she said I couple with Brandon. What a funny joke it is? But the funniest of all is when she forced new student to change place, he disagree. Then when I shifted place, I can't believe that she didn't notice at all and when she noticed, she was shocked but I'm happy seeing her showing different expression because of my attitude, it pleases me.
What I fear most isn't death, but the one whom I love most left me,abandoned me,left me alone again. I'm so afraid of losing you then when it comes to the time that I've lose you, now what should I fear anymore? Even being death means no nothing, no pain anymore.
