I wonder what are you thinking now? What are you doing now? Did you really hate that much till didn't want to enter college?
I being me again,back to the old me where teasing people unlimited. I'm being nonsense again but life still need to go on. Maybe my silly wish of time frozen still there but reality usually don't let me daydream or having unnecessary silly wish. Actually I know you still have feelings for her but I didn't admit it only. I've been knowing it all along,just didn't admit it. Maybe I should have thank her because of her presence, you'll love me,adore me and promising me eternity. Anyway,I'm grateful to both of you for coming to my life,giving me experience in my life showing and leading me. Although I don't know what are you thinking or will you still having feelings for me or not but I hope you'll live a better life. Please don't turn yourself upside down.
If you ever want to say sorry to me,please live your life happily and please don't make other girl cry any more. I know your past but I don't hope that there will be other girl that you'll hurt again. Please make me the last one, hope you'll be happy. :)
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Friday, August 24, 2012
Love
Huh~ Is almost been a month since my last post. I've been working hard on my healing phase and I think it started to work out. I'm feeling so much better than the few weeks of heart broken although I never regretted for what had happened but I guess at least I'm curious of what's lack in me that someone wouldn't love me?
Love is what is most precious thing to us,human being. Without it,this world will be even cruel than it is now. I starting to understand what love actually is, thanks brother. Other than the love I've always hoped for, there's still other love hidden that I didn't notice at all.
Besides the intimate love that I've been hoping for, you've shown me something that much more valuable than it, that is our weird but happy relationship. We are not couple but our intimacy are very much alike to couple. Is good that you help me grow in my healing phase. Now I can tell you that I'm off it already so no worries, be happy.
Recently, I only realise on how stubborn am I on certain question that I did get myself into crying and sad mood. Actually I should be happy bout it since is not all my fault so I don't need to bear all the responsibilities on my own.
Then I only realise that there's one love that wouldn't change even if I'm bury in the graveyard, that is love of family. That's why I've been, why should drop tears for those already not concern about me any more I should have be more happy for I've found those who sees my good and willing to share my pain when I'm hurt.
So this is the end of this page for today. See you soon,blogger. Love chocolates :)
Love is what is most precious thing to us,human being. Without it,this world will be even cruel than it is now. I starting to understand what love actually is, thanks brother. Other than the love I've always hoped for, there's still other love hidden that I didn't notice at all.
Besides the intimate love that I've been hoping for, you've shown me something that much more valuable than it, that is our weird but happy relationship. We are not couple but our intimacy are very much alike to couple. Is good that you help me grow in my healing phase. Now I can tell you that I'm off it already so no worries, be happy.
Recently, I only realise on how stubborn am I on certain question that I did get myself into crying and sad mood. Actually I should be happy bout it since is not all my fault so I don't need to bear all the responsibilities on my own.
Then I only realise that there's one love that wouldn't change even if I'm bury in the graveyard, that is love of family. That's why I've been, why should drop tears for those already not concern about me any more I should have be more happy for I've found those who sees my good and willing to share my pain when I'm hurt.
So this is the end of this page for today. See you soon,blogger. Love chocolates :)
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Waiting...
Patience.....patience........and PATIENCES....... please let me and him be patient before our meeting day arrive. You said you'll be giving me a surprise. I hope this surprise will make smile like old times in front of you once again. And I hope this surprise you mentioned din't lost. Anyway, I too have a surprise for you on that day but I guess my surprise won't make you happy but still I want to give you the surprise.
Still have 21 days to go before arriving to that day but my heart already pounded rapidly every second of waiting to that day. I can't wait to see you again. Please be patience and don't fade your love for me till my surprise comes in front of you. Please ....... I won't let you down again, I promise.
Sorry that things got changed. However, I'll always respect your decision no matter how I disagree them. I truly hope to see your smile again although from a long distance. Sorry for breaking promise that I won't cry . It isn't that I wanna cry in front of you and your friend but just breaking up is not what I expected and wanted. Remembered once you told me to have hope and have faith in myself, I doubt that when you told me so but when I truly wanted to so, you broke up all my hope and faith. I don't blame you for what had happened because I bear a larger responsibility that brought us to this situation.
I still remembered that you and I can last this relationship so long is due to one thing, that is speaking the truth to each other but since when this policy changed? I wonder if you ever tell all the truth to me, will our ending changed? but now that is not important any more cause our ending is fixed.
I owe you a thank you I suppose for adoring me past one and the half year. Thank you for all you have done, I'm gratitude already. You've done well in your part.Thanks~
Still have 21 days to go before arriving to that day but my heart already pounded rapidly every second of waiting to that day. I can't wait to see you again. Please be patience and don't fade your love for me till my surprise comes in front of you. Please ....... I won't let you down again, I promise.
Sorry that things got changed. However, I'll always respect your decision no matter how I disagree them. I truly hope to see your smile again although from a long distance. Sorry for breaking promise that I won't cry . It isn't that I wanna cry in front of you and your friend but just breaking up is not what I expected and wanted. Remembered once you told me to have hope and have faith in myself, I doubt that when you told me so but when I truly wanted to so, you broke up all my hope and faith. I don't blame you for what had happened because I bear a larger responsibility that brought us to this situation.
I still remembered that you and I can last this relationship so long is due to one thing, that is speaking the truth to each other but since when this policy changed? I wonder if you ever tell all the truth to me, will our ending changed? but now that is not important any more cause our ending is fixed.
I owe you a thank you I suppose for adoring me past one and the half year. Thank you for all you have done, I'm gratitude already. You've done well in your part.Thanks~
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