Reunion

Thanks for today's meeting. I'm fine by myself even if I have to go on alone in my world. Actually, I'm off your concern already. If you really feel troublesome when people complaining about me then ignore them or ask them not to find you anymore regarding me. I don't know that people will find you when I caused trouble or will they my current boyfriend? Anyhow, thank you for helping me behind but if you really insist on being my friend, please straight forward with me. I can see that just now you're trying your best to hide something from me but no matter what is it, if it regarding about me,just spill it out. I really hate people who hide thing in front of me and trying hard to back stab me.

Chatting with you isn't hard for me as you've said, we're friends. Just that, no more no less. I know well of my attitude that made people feel hate on me but I treat people the way they treat me. If he/she treat me well, I'll have no doubt to treat them well and vice versa.

Seriously, I know Jennie and Mikey more than you do as I'm closer with them. What people belongs to what character, I'm well acknowledge too. In my world, I've seen clearly on what friends should I contact more and which one I shouldn't. 

Maybe you're a bit right about my current boyfriend that he's a bit immature. However, not only he chose me but I chose him too. Despite no matter how immature he is,I must still accept and tolerate. Anyway, I should thank him for making me independence. Now I work on myself, didn't depend on him too much as I did it on you. So far, most of the time also I drove but sometimes he drove using my car so is alright to me. While about your personal lifestyle, I can have no say already as I'm in no post to do it anymore. If you're happy with who are you now then just go on. I also did the same way. I'm happy for who I am now. I can go shopping, do revision and part time job as I will.

I never regret an what have I done so far from knowing you, falling in love, being in relationship and finally broke up and being as friend again as I already let go what it should be. so just hope that we both can live  happily on our own. 

 

By the way, regarding your case, that depends on how much you weight your friendship and working. If you feel your friend is more important then stay with them but be prepare as you'll have to pay money to settle your degree certificate. If you choose working then as you mentioned earlier, if they angry at you just let them scold you a few bad words and treat them sushi king then it'll be fine else you also cannot do anything already. 

我的心真的受伤了

我真的伤了，累了。。。对不起，可能在你眼里我不是什么好情人。。。可我也不懂在你心里我到底是什么。。。你说我爱乱发脾气，很难哄但至少你还能用甜言蜜语来让重新在笑。可你呢？我连哄也不懂要怎么哄。。。你说只要我说 ‘我脱光光’ 你就会笑，就会开心可是那时用这招，你也只是勉强的笑，敷衍我罢了都不是真心笑。。。我真的不懂要怎么哄你了。。。看着你生气的样子我又无法做任何事帮你解忧分担，那时的我真的觉得自己很没有就像个负担只会连累人。我知道你一直都吧我当负担看待因为在你眼里我什么都不是。

就是因为知道你把我当负担所以我一直找工作不用你的钱。这样你就不必将辛苦把我当负担了。今天不信息你并不是我不想而是我不懂你的心情好了没有也不敢打扰你因为我尝试过了我发了的信息期待着你回复而我得到的结果就是什么都没有。那时的我就慌了，一直帮你找接口还是到底是不是我一厢情愿？我真的不懂了

你跟我说要坦白面对对方可我不知应不应将做因为我知道我坦白的是你给不到的。我要的时间是你父母不肯放你的，我明白。我要你陪我，你就说你的兄弟吃醋不然就没时间链球了，退步了。这我也能退让。我要亲热恩爱，你就告诉我在学院不行，很多教师在看着。这我也不免强了。可你刚才对我说的 ‘我都退一步了。。。还以为今天可以看到宝贝。。。可以陪我。。。结果听到没来。。。很像跟你的乾哥出去。。。当我什么吗。。。整个人傻掉。。。我什么都不知道。。。然后宝贝问我还好吗。。。要怎样好吗。。。宝贝讲做什么要告诉我先的。。。结果也是什么都不知道。。。好了。。。宝贝不是不知道。。。我爸跟我做工在office宝贝还带来。。。爸在旁边。。。我只好快快关电话’，你要我怎么对你坦白呢？难道要我说我利用别人的车油跟时间去做我的事吗？

我知道我不完美。我又不美，又自私，又矮，脾气又坏。你要我改我懂。我也很努力的试着可最近除了学院的事要烦我又多了家事要烦了。偏偏这时候你又心情不好，我也有试过哄你不过你不但没心情好转而且到了学院你连一眼都没看我。。。我心真的很通，很难过所以就队你说了一句‘你心情好了才找我不然就别找我了’。这句我不是要发你脾气也没要怪你，只室你要烦的我也要烦而且你不是不懂我家里要烦的是什么。除了这句我也不懂该说什么了看着脸黑黑的你。

对不起，是我的出现害了你。如果我不出现，你就不必隐瞒你父母，负担也不会将大，又不会跟你的兄弟感情减少连打球也退步了。真的对不起了